There are times when I set the auto focus on my camera but it goes in and out of focus attempting to determine where or what the object of focus is. Sometimes I need to make a few adjustments before the camera can actual focus itself on the composition of the photo.
That is how I feel right now. Term 1 of Indie Business 2.0 has come to a close, and my brain and heart seem to be going in and out, trying to determine where or what the object of my focus is.
Do I focus online or locally? Craft shows or consignment? Produce singular items or multiples? Children’s clothing or home décor? Blogging or personal networking? Do I stick with Irene Design or think up something catchy and slightly more original? Am I a hobbyist or a business entrepreneur in the making?
Do you all know what it means to DTR? (Define the Relationship). Back in my college days (I went to a Christian liberal arts school and loved it by the way), when a couple started to get serious about actually being a couple—or when one person wanted to let the other person know that they weren’t really into taking that next step—one would approach the other and hold a DTR chat. The relationship was defined, boundaries were set, and usually within a few hours everyone at the school knew what the outcome had been. It was a big deal.
I need to hold a DTR with myself. That’s half of why I took this course—to determine what I even needed to discuss!
The reality is, as much as I push against this, choices must be made. I cannot have it all; boundaries and limitations must be set. As I continue trying to determine where and what my focus is, my immediate reaction is against any kind of binary either/or. I want it all! But this is reality. I have just a few hours a week that I am able to devote to Irene Design, and that limitation must be kept in view or focus will never be achieved!
These questions do not mean that I am not enjoying the course or getting anything out of it. To the contrary, this is exactly what I wanted! I needed a little nudge, some adjustments, to get me to a point of being able to really focus on what matters.